Thank You Lord

Still can't move on. I got the chance to pray for my mother last night. Lagi ko naman siyang pinagppray, pero this is the first time na I prayed for her na kaming dalawa magkasama. She's in pain na rin kasi kagabi. Umiiyak na siya. I don't know what to do. Sobrang down na rin ako. Naaawa na ko sa kanya. Then I read my bible. I opened the book of Ezekiel. It's about Ezekiel's call. Then I sensed na sinasabi sakin ni Lord "to stand". I thought of praying for my mom. And yun nga, binigyan ako ng courage ni Lord to do that. Nakahiga na siya, and I asked her kung pwede mag pray muna kami. I held her hand.. I prayed for her. Naiiyak na ko. And after nung prayer, kahit nakapatay na yung ilaw, nakita ko.. naluha siya. I don't know kung dahil yun sa pain na nararamdaman niya o dahil sa prayer ko. But kung kahit ano pa man yun, alam kong God touched her heart. Ang sarap sa pakiramdam. Speechless. Thank You, Lord.

21st Anniversary

Happy 21st Anniversary Ma & Pa! ♥

I'm blessed to have these kind of parents. Though imperfect, still, they try their best to give the best life that we could ever have! Forever thankful to God for giving me such loving parents. They have been through many challenges and because of God's grace, they have overcome it! 

God knows how much I love you. I'm still praying for their salvation. My dream for my family is that one day, all of us will worship our King. Together, we'll grow deeper in love with Christ. I can't wait for that to happen! 

I love you so much Ma & Pa :) I'm always here for you. I'll always stay strong for you! ♥

Gives Me Hope

These are some of the stories that really touched my heart and inspired me. Hope these will make you smile :)

SOURCE: www.givesmehope.com ♥

Save You

Just remembered the song "Save You" by Simple Plan.

Few lines from the song:

You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you

I wish that I could tell you something

To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you

And there's so many things that I want you to know

I won't give up till it's over

If it takes you forever, I want you to know

When I hear you voice it's drowning in whispers
It's just skin and bones, it's nothing left to take
And no matter what I do I can't make you feel better
If I only I could find the answer to help me understand

That if you fall, stumble down I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up 'cause I'll be waiting
If you fall you know I'll be there for you..

Random. But if I'd be given the chance to sing this song, I'll offer it to my Mom. Yes, there are times I wished I could save her. Save her from pain. But then I know that I can't.. All I can do is pray for her. Hindi ko naman hawak ang buhay niya. Ang magagawa ko lang ay wag siyang iiwan. Be with her all the time. Take good care of her. Encourage her. Lumaban kasama niya. Lord knows that this is the cry of my heart. I want to see my mom na hindi na nahihirapan. Na magaling na siya. Na parang normal na ulit lahat. But still hindi ko hawak yun eh. Hindi sakin nakasalalay yun. Pero I trust God. Kahit gaano kahirap, I'll still hold on to His word, to His promise. 

I love you Ma. Alam ni Lord kung gaano kita pinaglalaban. Thank you Lord for everything. I know You have a plan for us. Help me to trust in You lalo na sa mga ganitong sitwasyon. I love you!

Test of Faith

Last week, March 20, 2012, parang naging roller coaster ulit ang buhay ko. 

Tuesday. Lumuwas ulit ako ng Manila dahil may class kami sa E-learning. Kahit na ipapasa lang yung project, syempre attendance din. Ang aga aga kong lumuwas kasi natatakot ako ma-late. Pero pagdating dun, waley. Hindi rin pumunta yung prof. Wala din yung awarding of certificates sa coop, di natuloy. So, nasayang lang yung pagluwas ko.

Yung mga friends ko, nagyaya pumunta ng SM. Pero hindi ko alam kung bakit, na-sense ko na kailangan kong umuwi ng Bulacan.. Gusto kong umuwi.

Nung nasa bus na ko, nagtext na lang si Kim, yung pinsan ko, at sinabing sobra daw yung sakit ng likod ni Mama. Andun daw silang lahat sa bahay namin. Naiiyak na daw si Mama sa sobrang sakit. Hindi siya makakilos. Nagpapadala na daw sa ospital. Kilala ko si Mama, hanggang kaya niyang tiisin, hindi siya magpapa-confine. Pero iba to eh.

Yung heartbeat ko ang bilis. Hindi ako mapakali habang nasa bus ako. 1 hour and a half pa ang kailangan kong hintayin para makauwi. Nag-pray ako kay Lord. Sabi ko sana kung ano man yung pain na nararamdaman ni Mama nung time na yun, sana mawala.. Or sana mabawasan :(

Pag-uwi ko samin, nakita ko si Mama. Nakahiga. Hindi siya makabangon. Masakit daw likod niya. (Sa mga hindi nakakaalam, na-operahan si Mama sa breast and sa spine. Breast cancer, Stage 2 dapat, pero since nag-metastasis sa spine, napunta sa spine yung bukol, naging Stage 4. So 2 major operations ang ginawa sa kanya within a day! Galing ng Mama ko no? Galing ni Lord eh!) Pero yun nga, may something daw ulit sa spine niya. And kitang kita talaga na hirap na hirap siya. Ang sakit sa puso na makita siyang ganon :|

So ayun, napagdesisyunan namin na ipa-confine na nga lang siya. Dapat dun kami sa talagang doctor niya sa San Juan de Dios, kaya lang out of the country daw yung doctor kaya dun na lang kami sa isa pa niyang doctor sa UDMC. Nag-rent kami ng ambulance para mas mabilis kami makarating. (Na-enjoy ko yung ambulance experience na yun, infairness! :D) 

Pagdating sa hospital, pinuntahan na namin agad yung doctor niya. And yun nga magpapa-admit na siya. Humanap kami ng room ng tita ko, and nag-ayos ng ibang bills. Nung nasa room na kami, umuwi na yung dalawa kong tita kasi syempre may mga pamilya din sila. Kaming dalawa lang ng kapatid ko ang naiwan. Kami ang bantay. First time.

Sabi ng doctor niya, kailangan daw niya i-MRI para makita kung ano ang mali sa likod niya. Ilang oras kami naghintay sa room, pero gabi na din siya na-MRI. Ang ineexpect ko talaga idedextrose siya, para mabigyan din siya ng pain killer, pero wala. Bat ganon?! Nakaupo lang siya sa wheel chair. Yung pain killer na dala namin galing sa bahay (na hindi naman effective), yun lang din yung pinainom kay Mama. So parang nasa bahay lang kami diba?! Nun pa lang, medyo nag-iba na yung mood ko. Naiinis na ko kasi walang ginagawa yung mga nurse.. Haaay! :(

So yun nga, naka-schedule na siya ng MRI. Sinamahan ko siya hanggang dun sa baba. Eto na, nun ko lang nalaman na pag MRI pala flat na nakahiga lang for more than an hour. Hindi ba alam ng doctor yun?! Sinabihan na siya na hindi nga kaya ni Mama mahiga ng flat at matagal tapos ganon pa papagawa sa kanya?! Kung binigyan man lang siya ng pain killer bago gawin yun diba?! Grabe! Sobra na!!!

Habang hinihintay ko siya sa labas, I was talking to God.. Sabi ko kay Lord na Siya na bahala kay Mama. Alam kong di naman Niya papabayaan si Mama. May plan Siya kung bakit nangyayari yun ngayon. I just have to trust Him.

After nung MRI, ayun na. Sobrang sakit na ng likod ni Mama. Hindi siya makabangon :( Nanlalamig na siya sa sobrang sakit. Nagpatawag ako ng nurse. Nanghihingi ako ng pain killer. Hindi namin alam kung saan ba siya isasakay, kung sa stretcher ba o sa wheelchair. Haay! Naiiyak na ko nun. Hirap na hirap na si Mama. Siguro 1 hour kaming nagtagal dun. Hindi namin siya maitayo. Hanggang sa nag-decide yung isang lalaking nurse na buhatin siya. Though super sakit nun, pero at least 5 seconds lang daw siyang bubuhatin. So after nun, sa wheelchair na lang siya sinakay kasi masyado daw matagtag yung stretcher. Baka mas lalong sumakit yung likod niya. 

After nun, pagbalik sa room, ayun na! Boom! Super sakit na talaga ng likod niya. Pumunta ako sa nurse's station para humingi ng tulong pero wala silang magawa. Bakit ganon?! :( Umiiyak na si Mama sa sakit, at napakahirap sa part ko nun kasi wala akong magawa. Tinapalan ko na lang siya ng anion na liner sa likod na bigay sakin ng bestfriend kong si Jovit. Buti na lang binigyan niya ko nun! Di ko alam kung ano talaga benefits nun pero may negative ions daw yun na nakakatulong sa katawan. Basta parang ganon. Since wala rin naman akong ibang alternative na pampaalis ng pain, yun na lang ginawa ko. Nilagyan ko siya dun sa mga parts na sumasakit. Weird lang tingnan kasi liner yun, pero okay lang basta makakatulong kay Mama. Pati yung water na iniinom niya, nilagyan ko ng anion. Somehow, medyo nabawasan. Thank God! Pero andun pa rin yung pain. Buti na lang dumalaw si Ate Rosan at ang inaanak kong si Jarred :) Malapit lang kasi house nila dun sa hospital kaya dumaan sila. Super cute ni Jarred at nakaka-nosebleed kausap kaya medyo naaliw si Mama. Hehe. Bumili ako sa labas ng dinner and pinainom siya ng gamot after.

Nung umalis na sila, kaming dalawa na lang ulit ng kapatid ko ang bantay. Buti na lang nagtext si Jovit na kung gusto ko daw bang pumunta siya dun sa hospital after ng work niya para magbantay din at makatulog naman daw ako. (English tutor kasi siya sa Koreans - part timer) Pumayag na ko, and kailangan rin siya ni Mama kasi kailangan talaga ng man power. Lalo na pag mga buhat na. Yung kapatid ko kasi medyo childish pa. Mahirap utusan kahit na para kay Mama naman yun. Haay! Nagdala siya ng dvd at tattoo para naman daw may magawa rin. Akala ko naman kasi may wifi, sayang tuloy laptop. Hindi ko ma-update si Papa. So ayun, nagbantay lang kami. Ang hirap. Walang tulog. Kailangan samahan si Mama pag pupunta sa cr, pag tatayo. Pag masakit likod kailangan hagurin yung likod niya kasi wala namang maibigay na pain killer yung mga nurse. Ang tagal na namin sa room pero hindi pa rin siya binibigyan ng gamot. Ang galing diba?! Tss. Super disappointed ako sa service nila. Nung madaling araw na, hindi na talaga kaya ni Mama. Hindi siya makatulog sa wheelchair. Wala din ako mahanap na nabibilhan ng neck comforter. Gusto daw niya mahiga. Wala na daw siyang pakialam kahit super sakit basta daw makahiga siya. Magpapabuhat na lang daw siya kay Jovit pag di na niya kaya. Kinabukasan, yun nga. Pahirapan yung pagbangon. Binuhat na lang siya ni Jovit ng biglaan para makabangon at mailipat sa wheelchair. Walang nurse na mag-aassist eh. Ang galing ng ospital diba?!

After nun, nakatext ko na si Nanay Dg, inupdate ko siya sa mga nangyayari. Still thankful to God kasi may lifegroup ako. May lifegroup leader ako na handang ipag-pray ako. Nandyan para i-encourage ka at palakasin loob mo. So if ever mabasa mo to Nay, thank you so much! Loveyou po! :)

Hiningi ko rin sa kanya number ni Ate Joan kasi natatandaan ko yung barley. Naisipan ko na umorder kasi baka makatulong kay Mama yung barley. Nakita ko rin sa internet na maganda yung benefits nun sa katawan and sa isang cancer patient. Buti na lang may stock pa si ate :) Kaso dalawa na nga lang. Pero okay na yun. Buti rin andyan si Jovit, siya kumuha ng barley sa Sta. Mesa kasi hindi ko maiwan si Mama. Walang magbabantay. Hindi naman pwede na yung kapatid ko lang. Pinainom ko si Mama ng 1 bottle and nakatulong naman siya. So if ever mabasa mo din to Ate Jo, thank you din po ah! Super laki ng tulong ng barley :) And sa prayers na din po :)

May pasok na si Jovit ulit kaya kailangan na niyang umuwi nung hapon. If ever mabasa mo din to, super thank you! The best ka! Kahit biglaan kaya mo gawan ng paraan makatulong lang :D Super friend! Siya yung walang tulog talaga. Pinatulog niya ko at siya muna nagbantay. Kahit na pagod siya sa work. Waah! Blessed to have you! ♥

The next day, pinainom ko ulit siya ng barley, ayun medyo okay na siya. Nakakatayo na siya ng mas mabilis. At nabawasan daw yun pain. Thank you Lord! :) Ang saya!! After din lumabas ng result sa MRI, nakita na parang may fracture sa ribs niya. Pero ang nakakapagtaka, sa lover part ng likod niya yung sumasakit. So sabi ng doctor ipa-xray naman daw. Ayun, sumakit ulit likod ni Mama dahil nangawit. Back to zero ulit :| Haaay!! Buti dumating yung isa kong pinsan na si Kuya Mac, kahit papano may nakatulong ako.

To cut the long story short, walang ginawa yung hospital kung hindi pasakitin at palalain yung sakit ng likod ni Mama. (Sorry ah, pero yun talaga ang naramdaman ko) Akala ko nung nagpunta kami dun, kahit papano may matutulong sila, kaya nga tinawag na hospital diba. Pero wala. Super nakakadisappoint. Umuwi kami ng ganon din. Walang nakita sa results. Kaya nagpa-consult pa ulit sa ibang doctor. Nasayang lang binayad namin. 

Physically tired. Stressed. Walang tulog kasi lagi kong binabantayan si Mama lalo na pag nagigising siya dahil sa sakit. Lalagyan ng mainit na tubig yung hot water bag niya para ilagay sa likod. Papalitan ng liner yung likod niya. Papainumin siya ng tubig na may anion. Sasamahan pumunta sa  cr. etc. etc. etc.

Up to now, may pain pa rin. Pero I trust God's healing hands. Alam kong hindi niya papabayaan si Mama. Natutunan ko na may mga bagay na hindi talaga natin control. Actually dapat talaga hindi tayo ang mag-control. Ang dali kasing sabihin na, "Lord, I surrender everything to You." Pero in the end, hindi naman pala talaga. Honestly, ang hirap talaga i-surrender lahat lalo na pag may mga bagay na gusto mo masunod ang mga sarili natin. Selfish. Pero iba ang "Total Surrender". I-surrender lahat kay Lord kahit na ano pa man ang mangyari. It should be His way, not our way. God is our only Healer. Sobrang test of faith sakin tong nangyari. May mga times na super umiiyak na lang ako kasi hindi ko na kaya at hindi ko na alam gagawin ko. Mali eh, mas naging malaki yung challenge/problem kaysa sa faith. Para saan pa at hindi ko din nagamit yung code ko na: Faith Over Reality. We should let our faith be bigger than our fears. Kahit gaano pa kalaki yung problem, mas malaki pa din si God dun! And yun nga, fight lang! :D

"The Lord will fight for you, you only need to be still." - Exodus 14:14

"Nothing is impossible for You.. You hold my world in Your hands." - Healer, Hillsong

Hope of All Hearts

Hope of All Hearts by Planetshakers

VERSE 1
The world may fail
You will remain
In the midst of the trial
You will always be 
I'll sing our God never fails
Our God never fails


VERSE 2
With hope and light
You reign over all
Though my heart may fail
You will always be
I'll sing our God never fails
Our God never fails


PRE-CHORUS
Praise in the morning
Praise in the evening
Praise when I'm laughing
Praise when I'm grieving


There will be dancing
There will be singing
Upon injustice we will tell of our God


CHORUS
The hope of all hearts
The hope of all hearts is You
Your love never fails
Your love never fails


BRIDGE
In the darkness, in trial
My soul shall sing
Of Your mercy and kindness
Our offering of praise
Our God never fails

Our God never fails  

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Lord whatever happens, I'll still praise Your Holy Name! You are higher than any other! In the midst of the trial I know that You are always with us! The battle is Yours! Thank You for Your unfailing love! I love You!

"The Lord will fight for you, you only need to be still." -- Exodus 14:14

Photo Funia

Downloaded the "Photo Funia" App from Ovi Store. One of the few apps that really satisfied me.

So this is me when I'm bored..

"Fat Effect"

"Zombie"

"Beauty Queen"

"Retro Style"

"DJ Mode"

Race for Life

I've had too many dreams but I think what I had last night, was the weirdest.. and I think most emotional.

Most of my dreams were about being a superhero, action star, who fights with different movie actors and actresses :) Some will be about flying in the sky and travelling to different countries. Most of the time, my dreams are about my high school/elementary crushes, or celebrity crushes, then having our own love story/movie in my dreams :)

Last night, I dreamed about having a so-called "Race for Life". The setting was like in Rizal Park or Quirino Grandstand? Not sure. But everyone, including me, sat on a bench like what we can see in gymnasiums or in Araneta Coliseum (gen ad part). But the whole area is open, and on the opposite site, where the actual race happened, is like on a rough road, with a farm-like atmosphere on the sides. Weird right? Sorry I really can't explain everything in detail.

I was with my block mates and some relatives. We sat together, but the weird thing is it seemed like we don't know each other. Or we were not in good terms, I think? Then few meters in front of us, we can see the actual race.

We were the audience and we had our own 'bets' on the race. Then the race began. Everyone on the bench waited for their friends, families, to finish the race. The race will end after 15 minutes only (not sure) then whoever didn't finish the race, will die. Everyone on the bench was crying when they saw their loved ones finished the race, and at the same time those who still haven't seen their loved ones near the finish line.

2 minutes before the race ends, I saw my mom running. She's trying to finish the race. My friends beside me have their loved ones with them already and I'm worried because I saw my mom's face, she's sick and it's hard for her to finish the race.

But then before the race ended, I saw my mom smiling at the finish line. She finished the race! She made it! Then she ran towards me and we hugged each other! (Btw, I don't know why my father and brother wasn't there) Tears started to roll down my face. I just hugged her and thanked her for trying her best to finish the race.

When I woke up, I found myself crying. When I touched my face, I still felt the tears. Weird. Amazing. Still can't recover from my dream.

So what's the point of sharing this dream? I just realized how much my mom loves me, my family. That no matter how hard it is for her to keep on fighting against cancer, still, she's doing it for our family. Actually, she can quit already, she can choose to not finish the race, but still she's battling against cancer for us. She still wants to live for us. And I'm blessed to have a mom like her. I'm so thankful to God because He never left us. He strengthens my mom and gives us hope. I realized how important it is to cherish every moment I have with my mom. I want her to feel loved everyday. I want to see her smiling all the time. I'll try my best to be a better daughter.

And one thing's for sure, I'll always be at the finish line supporting and waiting for her. I can also be with her during the race. I'll run the race with her :)


I believe that God is our only Healer and He can make a miracle. I just surrender everything to Him and trust Him. I love You Lord! Thank You for the life of my mother!

My Bestfriend

Everyone has a best friend. I am blessed because God gave me a SISTER and a BEST FRIEND in one.

Meet Leah Sumiran Visey. We call each other "Pola" :)

Honestly, we're really different from each other. Magkaiba kami ng mga "trip" sa buhay. And it's really amazing how God put us together. I can't imagine my life without her. Naks! Hehe.

I can't remember when we became close or best friends. We were blockmates since 1st year college pero hindi talaga kami close. Honestly, feeling ko hindi pa siya nag-eexist non. Haha! Until we had the same group of friends sa classroom, naging isang "barkada" na lang kami. Pero nandun pa rin yung walls eh, I have my own original group, at ganun din siya. Still, thankful pa rin kay Lord kasi binuo niya yung "SF". Dahil sa group na yun, mas naging close kami at mas nakilala ang isa't isa.

I think nagsimula ang deeper level ng friendship namin noong naging official member na ko ng Horizon :) Naging ka-life group ko sila ni Chu with our Life group leader Mami Pau :) Hanggang sa umalis si Mami Pau, naging kaming tatlo na lang, then nalipat kami kay Nanay DG.

I am also blessed by her sweetness. Siya ang constant textmate ko. Haha! And siya rin minsan ang nakakapagpakilig sakin. Yieee :) Siya ang kauna-unahang nagbigay sakin ng rose, plus long letter! As in long talaga! We had our "monito monita" sa barkada last December and siya nakabunot sakin. "Something long" ang theme and yun ang binigay niya sakin :) Sweetness overload!

I tell everything to her. Battling for each other's hearts. I admire how Pola stepped up for God's glory. She is Radical Youth Movement's Vice President. I admire her commitment to the Lord and how she loves serving God. Though child-like (not childish) kung minsan, she knows how to be serious when it comes to her spiritual life. She has always been my prayer partner and encourages me all the time :) Blessed to have her! ♥

There are times na hindi kami nagpapansinan sa school. Haha! Di ko alam kung bakit :p Siguro di rin kami nagkakaintindihan because of insensitivity reasons. Haha! Still, I couldn't trade her for anyone else. ♥

I love you Pola! I'm always here for you! ♥

Ecclesiastes 4:12 "Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken."

Tear Down the Walls (Devo 02/29/12)

Jeremiah 30:17

Scripture:

"But I will restore you to health and heal your wounds, "declares the Lord. "Because you are called an outcast, Zion for whom no one cares."

Observation:

Putting walls hinders us from receiving more from God. We always put in our minds that no one can hurt us if we don't let anyone get close to us. But we don't realize that it won't work. Sometimes it hinders God's plan to take place in our lives. The wall you've built to keep others out has locked you in. The Lord wants to be our protector, but He cannot, if we are busy trying to protect ourselves. Our God is our Healer and our Restorer. He is our protector. Our comfort in times of distress.

Application:

The Lord teaches me to tear down the walls of fear that I've built around myself and tear them down through faith. Receive the healing from Jesus. When someone hurts us, take it to the Lord in prayer and be willing to handle it His way instead on my own. God doesn't promised that there will be no pain, or we will never experience to get hurt. What He assures us is He will be with us, He will be our Healer, we just have to let Him do His plans! :)

Prayer:

Lord, sorry for the times that I didn't trusted You and tried to rely on my own strength. I believe that You are my healer. You are more than enough for me! Thank You! Help me to tear those walls of fear around me. I love you! Amen.

Personal Promise (Devo 02/29/12)

Jeremiah 29:11

Scripture:

"For I know the plans I have for you, ''declares the Lord, ''Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Observation:

A well-known verse. This is a letter for the people who are being held captive and are in exile from their homeland. He's writing to let them know that although they're not where they would have expected, nor where they would have asked God to place them, God has not forgotten them and He still has a plan for their lives. Even in the midst of a very difficult situation, God wants them to know His plans! In the end, God's justice will prevail and everything will even out. What an encouragement! :) The Lord tells them to move forward, all they need to do is trust and believe Him! ♥

Application:

God wants us to know that He has a plan. It is his personal promise to us. He wants us to submit to His plan. Ang sweet lang ni Lord! ♥ He may not remove us from the situation that we're going through right now, but surely He will help us because He has a plan for us. Personally, this is the verse that encourages me whenever I am down or worried. I feel secured because I know God is with me. Ang galing no? :) Never lose hope lang. Ginaguarantee naman ni Lord na di Niya tayo pababayaan. There's nothing to worry! God knows what's best for us. We just have to submit to Him. Surrender, trust, believe and have faith in Him! ♥

Prayer:

Lord, thank You for my life. Thank you for choosing to save me and for giving the best for me. I surrender my life completely to You. I trust You. I love you! Amen. ♥

Goodbye College

Hello! :) So here we go.. After five years of "abandoning" this site, here I am blogging about the end of my college life. Geez! Time flies so fast that I can still remember the days when I'm really excited about going to college :) Hihi.

Actually, wala talaga ako dapat sa PUP. I passed the entrance exam sa UST - Tourism. That's really my first choice. But because of insecurity reasons, I changed my preferred course to Accountancy. My mom said na pagdating sa Accountancy, maganda daw ang PUP. Before, wala pa kong idea about PUP, I don't even know kung saan yun. Hehe. But yun nga, tinry ko din dun, basta ang goal ko lang noon is to study in Manila para maging 'free'. Siguro hindi will ni Lord ang Accountancy sakin, I passed the exam pero nagkaubusan ng slots sa course na yun. And honestly, hindi ko alam kung bakit sa Office Administration ako napunta. Haha. Lumipas ang 1 year and hindi ako natuwa sa course ko, My parents and I decided na mag transfer na ko ng school. Either MAPUA or Adamson sana, pero dahil inincomplete ako ng Socio prof ko (kahit di ko alam kung bakit), hindi natuloy yung paglipat ko ng school. To cut the long story short, tinuloy ko ang BOA sa PUP :) Hehe.

Here's my blog from my multiply account: (forgive me for being so jeje. haha)

See? Ang ligalig ko pa non. Excited kasing maranasan yung "freedom" na feeling ko hindi ko naranasan noong High school. Napaka-childish kasi. Haha.

Here's another blog from my multiply account describing my 1st week as a college student. (Again, forgive me for being so jeje and for being so rude. haha. 4 years ago pa to, nagbago na ko. haha)

Of course I stayed sa isang dorm nung una. I stayed at Villa Francisco Dormitory along Teresa St. So walking distance lang from my school :)

But because of "freedom" reasons again and as well as privacy reasons, my other dorm mates and I decided to transfer to an apartment. Unfortunately, I don't have pictures of our apartment. Pero malayong malayo sa itsure ng dorm ko before :D Haha!

So here we go.. My college life is not that easy. Though "petiks" na yung course namin in a way, compared sa ibang courses, still naging major problem talaga ang mga professors.

But wait, here's my ID. Buti na lang I got the chance na kuhanan ng picture nung 1st year pa ko. Kasi pag ngayon, sobrang blurred na. Haha.

Talking about my acads, 1st year wasn't good to me. Hehe. That was the first time that I've seen a professor who smokes in class (wait, I'm not sure if this was 1st or 2nd year. haha), professors who leave everything to the ST's (student teachers) and ending up guessing grades. So unfair! First time kong na-incomplete sa Socio and then 3.0 sa Marketing! :| Pero it was a good start para makahanap ng bagong friends. True friends! ♥

2nd year was the year na may Accounting subject na kami. And dito ko na-prove na buti na lang pala hindi ako nilagay ni Lord sa Accountancy :) Hihi. Unfair din kasi hindi naman talaga nagtuturo yung mga professors. Pero, okay lang. Siguro kung natuloy ako sa Accountancy, sobrang nerd na ko ngayon. Haha! Dito ko rin na-experience yung prof na namamalo at nangugurot. Yes, physical abuse ang peg! Grr. As usual, hindi mauubusan ng profs na nanghuhula ng grade. Wala ng nakakagulat don. Siguro kung may prof na fair magbigay ng grade, grabe, mapapa-wow talaga ako! Lol. Nag OJT na rin kami, we had our training sa Philippine Postal Corporation, of course with my closest friends na sina Choc at Chu ♥

3rd year was the most heartbreaking year for me. Heartbreaking kasi dito ko na-experience na bigyan ako ng W ng research prof ko. Hindi ko lang talaga ma-gets kung bakit may mga prof na kahit alam nilang di na nila kaya magturo, nagtuturo pa din. Students tuloy nagsusuffer. Ilang beses akong pabalik balik sa school para kausapin prof at ang anak niya. Pinasa ko yung papers na sinabi nila, pero in the end, wala pa din. So nag enroll na lang ulit ako ng subject na yun. Pero syempre, naka-move on na ko dyan. Haha! Dito din may prof na gustong laging naka-make up at naka-heels. Pero meron ding cute na prof tulad nila Ma'am Luna at Ma'am Curato :) Hihi ♥ Dalawang OJTs din meron sa year nato. First sa St. Luke's Medical Center, then nung second sem sa Mandaluyong City Hall (Legal Department).

4th year. Last year. Nakaka-pressure, pero slight lang pala. Haha! Nag-eexpect ako na magiging haggard at sobrang busy kami dahil last year na, pero hindi din naman pala. Though may times na naging busy din naman kami, overnight para sa website, defense at feeding program sa isang araw, etc. Last OJT namin nung 1st sem, sa school lang rin. Sa Office of Scholarship and Financial Assistance (OSFA).

This year is also a memorable year for me. Inassign ako ni Lord to be an officer ng Radical Youth Movement! Such a wonderful blessing! Room to room evangelism, Bible study, seminars, etc. Campus ministry is ♥! :)

College life may be stressful, pero masaya pa rin syempre pag andyan ang friends mo :) Nakilala ko kung sino ang mga totoo kong kaibigan. Those who'll never leave you kahit ano man pinagdadaanan mo. Tho who'll also bring you closer to God :)

Thank you Lord for sustaining us! Thank you for being there for me, for being faithful to me. A thousand times I've failed still Your mercy remains! Thank you for guiding me throughout these years! The glory goes to You alone!! I love You more and more each day! ♥

BOA CT 4-4D Batch 2012 ♥